its that time of year again....

when life is renewing, the world is so vibrant with colors. its beautiful.
but it is also a sad time for me, this was the time of year my father died. it will be three years this friday 5-9-08. i almost wrote that i lost my father. even though he is gone i really didnt loose him now did i? he is still in my heart, in the realm of existence just not the world i am or intune to rather. the thing i miss the most is how i could feel such love and care in his presence and so at home and relaxed if he was around. the picture of balloons is just a reminder of the tradition we started on the anniversary of his death. we will buy about a dozen or so balloons and take them to the cemetery where some of his ashes are buried with a tombstone. on the balloons we write little messages to him, us kids, the grandkids, his wife. it is especially neat for the grandkids. they like sending messages and balloons to heaven to granddad. on tristan's last birthday, he wanted to send off his balloons i had got him for his party to granddaddy. it's a sweet thought.

the impressions we make on our kids....

I really try to be sensitive to other people's feelings, thoughts and beliefs. When I helped teached foster parent training I learned alot of skills to assist with that. Well, it is so apparent to me that my 5 year old little boy is picking up on it too. He is definitely a very sweet and intuitive child. The other day we were driving home from meeting his dad and I had my niece Chloe with me. She is about 19 months old. Tristan was helping Chloe with her snacks and her drink when she became restless. It was about a two hour trip total. She started fussing when we got close to home. Tristan could not find her "pie pie" (pacifier) because she had dropped down out of his reach and site. She was crying and he said sweetly and softly, "Oh Baby Chloe, I know it is frustrating but we will be home in a minute, it will be okay!" I smiled with such pride and giggled and he was like what momma? I told him i was proud of him for being so nice to Chloe. He gave me five and when we got home and her out of the car she was good to go! She finally started saying my name and she calls me "A-knee" I love it! Kids are the best. I am so grateful for the children in my life and I hope that one of these days all adults can do the same.

I want to go here! Maybe Julie and her kids and Me and Tristan can go some day! Thoughts become things, so i am going to think really really hard!!!

Worlds largest swimming pool, AMAZING!
If you like doing laps in the swimming pool, you might want to stock up on the energy drinks before diving in to this one.
It is more than 1,000 yards long, covers 20 acres, had a 115ft deep end and holds 66 million gallons of water.
Yesterday the Guinness Book of Records named the vast pool beside the sea in Chile as the biggest in the world.
But if you fancy splashing out on one of your own - and you have the space to accommodate it - then beware: This one took five years to build, cost nearly ?billion and the annual maintenance bill will be ?million.The man-made saltwater lagoon has been attracting huge crowds to the San Alfonso del Mar resort at Algarrobo, on Chile 'S southern coast, since it opened last month.Its turquoise waters are so crystal clear that you can see the bottom even in the deep end. The
only problem has been when one swimmer - Bill Owens-- was mistaken for a whale and the pool
was evacuated with minor injuries. It dwarfs the world's second biggest pool, the Earthlike - nicknamed the Big Splash - in Morocco , which is a mere 150 yards long and 100 yards wide. An Olympicsize pool measures some 50 yards by 25 yards.Chile 'S monster pool uses a computer- controlled suction and filtration system to keep fresh seawater in permanent circulation, drawing it in from the ocean at one end and pumping it out at the other.The sun warms the water to 26c, nine degrees warmer than the adjoining sea.
Chilean biochemist Fernando Fischmann, whose Crystal Lagoons Corporation designed the pool, said advanced engineering meant his company could build 'an impressive artificial paradise' even in inhospitable areas.'As long as we have access to unlimited seawater, we can make it work, and it causes no damage to the ocean.'

a typical day...

well not really, today i worked from 8am to 10:30pm and I am still at the office because it is pouring down rain and the tornadoe sirens went off and i live about 30 minutes away from work. anyway, i saw my friends blog and i thought i would add one of my own since i cant use myspace at work anymore...

i get angry at shitty parents, i have a new client that i am his guardian for now, he is 16 has been kicked out of 4 schools, has not attended school in the last year, his mom does not want him, his granddad cant supervise him due to his work schedule and his dad does not want him either. no wonder this child has so many problems, drugs alcohol, stealing. if i had his life id prob be in the same position. being tossed around and feeling unloved. some people are undeserving of being parents and how angry it makes me that because of the parent's poor parenting skills they give up on their kids. i think being in state's custody is the best thing for him, but the empathy i had for this child today when he was crying because he could not go home, he had no where to go, really broke my heart. he was upset with me at first but after the 4 hour drive i think we bonded just a little. maybe i can be a dependable adult in his life that believes in him and follows through to get him the help he needs. peace love and happiness can only be sent out into the world if you were given it to begin with, even just a little bit... sometimes you have to find your own way but it helps if you have good role models.