its that time of year again....

when life is renewing, the world is so vibrant with colors. its beautiful.
but it is also a sad time for me, this was the time of year my father died. it will be three years this friday 5-9-08. i almost wrote that i lost my father. even though he is gone i really didnt loose him now did i? he is still in my heart, in the realm of existence just not the world i am or intune to rather. the thing i miss the most is how i could feel such love and care in his presence and so at home and relaxed if he was around. the picture of balloons is just a reminder of the tradition we started on the anniversary of his death. we will buy about a dozen or so balloons and take them to the cemetery where some of his ashes are buried with a tombstone. on the balloons we write little messages to him, us kids, the grandkids, his wife. it is especially neat for the grandkids. they like sending messages and balloons to heaven to granddad. on tristan's last birthday, he wanted to send off his balloons i had got him for his party to granddaddy. it's a sweet thought.